Money Drunk Money Sober: What values are important to me?

For this time period, I am working through Julia Cameron and Mark Bryan’s book Money Drunk, Money Sober before I work through the Prosperous Heart. The following blog entries are in response to prompts and experiences from the book. I see this as an extension of my Artist’s Way work. Some of my entries are jarring and highly personal – any program of sobriety and self-improvement demands admitting dysfunction both personally and in family, and it also calls to admit some painful truths. While not everything I work on appears here, a number of realities do. I have a genuine body of work thanks to my work on the Artist’s Way program, and I can’t ignore the changes the continual commitment has brought about. Because of that, I also can’t ignore what going further into the harder aspects of the program – like facing money issues – has the potential to improve.

  1. Honesty – NOT brutality. It is important to be direct and honest about your own feelings. “This makes me uncomfortable.” “I have a complicated response to this.” “I have some fears.”  This is not “telling someone how it is,” about themselves – that’s just being verbally abusive.
  2. Accountability. When I am absolutely certain I have done something that hurts/harms, I DO apologize. I also am willing to admin when I am incontrovertibly wrong, especially if it does cause inconvenience, discomfort, or missing something really cool.
  3. Comfort. I value being physically comfortable. This includes doing exercises to remain comfortable long-term.
  4. Screw “the show.” I have nothing to prove. I want a condo because it’s easier to live in than a house, for example. I know in my heart and mind that I do not want babies, or a house, and honestly there isn’t anything my family has given me that I have any reason to give back – especially not the PTSD diagnosis. There will never be any NOT being angry about that one. The less like my family of birth I am, the better a human being I am and can become. And I don’t have to manipulate the people around THEM into thinking I’m crazy to do that. (It takes a village to raise a child. It also takes a village to abuse one.) I also do not wish to participate in the “Paganer than thou” show. I hate camping. I like physical comfort. I don’t need to talk shit about the New Age movement because they dare CHARGE for their services.
  5. Fun. It seems like the greatest sin in any culture is that of actual enjoyment – you can’t be virtuous if you’re not “serious.” So I’d like to drop the virtue and actually enjoy myself: enjoy what I read, enjoy how I spend my time, enjoy what I do for a living. That whole “work isn’t supposed to be fun,” chest pounding crap is absolute crap. It isn’t fun all the time – but it should have DAILY moments of genuine engagement.

 

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