For this time period, I am working through Julia Cameron and Mark Bryan’s book Money Drunk, Money Sober before I work through the Prosperous Heart. The following blog entries are in response to prompts and experiences from the book. I see this as an extension of my Artist’s Way work. Some of my entries are jarring and highly personal – any program of sobriety and self-improvement demands admitting dysfunction both personally and in family, and it also calls to admit some painful truths. While not everything I work on appears here, a number of realities do. I have a genuine body of work thanks to my work on the Artist’s Way program, and I can’t ignore the changes the continual commitment has brought about. Because of that, I also can’t ignore what going further into the harder aspects of the program – like facing money issues – has the potential to improve.
- Honesty – NOT brutality. It is important to be direct and honest about your own feelings. “This makes me uncomfortable.” “I have a complicated response to this.” “I have some fears.” This is not “telling someone how it is,” about themselves – that’s just being verbally abusive.
- Accountability. When I am absolutely certain I have done something that hurts/harms, I DO apologize. I also am willing to admin when I am incontrovertibly wrong, especially if it does cause inconvenience, discomfort, or missing something really cool.
- Comfort. I value being physically comfortable. This includes doing exercises to remain comfortable long-term.
- Screw “the show.” I have nothing to prove. I want a condo because it’s easier to live in than a house, for example. I know in my heart and mind that I do not want babies, or a house, and honestly there isn’t anything my family has given me that I have any reason to give back – especially not the PTSD diagnosis. There will never be any NOT being angry about that one. The less like my family of birth I am, the better a human being I am and can become. And I don’t have to manipulate the people around THEM into thinking I’m crazy to do that. (It takes a village to raise a child. It also takes a village to abuse one.) I also do not wish to participate in the “Paganer than thou” show. I hate camping. I like physical comfort. I don’t need to talk shit about the New Age movement because they dare CHARGE for their services.
- Fun. It seems like the greatest sin in any culture is that of actual enjoyment – you can’t be virtuous if you’re not “serious.” So I’d like to drop the virtue and actually enjoy myself: enjoy what I read, enjoy how I spend my time, enjoy what I do for a living. That whole “work isn’t supposed to be fun,” chest pounding crap is absolute crap. It isn’t fun all the time – but it should have DAILY moments of genuine engagement.
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